Wednesday, June 14, 2017

UPDATE

I'll be changing a lotttttttt of things in this first few chapters, I just realized how fast I'm taking things, soooooooooooooo I'll probably remove ba3'6 el posts 3ashan I re-edit them w k4a.

Chapter 1: Edited and reposted.

Chapter 2: Edited and reposted.

Chapter 3:  Edited and reposted.

Chapter 4: Still editing.


I advise you guys to re-read the chapters because I added a few events w hl 5arbi6ah.

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Chapter 4

Chapter 4:


And for once, maybe just this once, I believed that not all boys are animals..


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Its been almost a week, we've been texting for a while. But let me tell you something, I kept my distance, I was to scared to get close, and lets be real here, I had a crush on another guy who I've been talking to a month before Nawaf ;)


This other guy is Khalid, wallah he's hot, but short, sadly, I'm taller haha. At first we talked a lotttt, bs faj2a he started getting cold, mra cold.


Khalid was the reason of my barrier between Nawaf and I.


Elmuhim, the next weekend I was volunteering at some kind of festival, and yup, its pretty fun.


"BANAAAAATTT MA T9ADGOOOON!" I literally shouted to the team I worked with.


"WSHO ESH 9AR???" Jumana said (a teammate).


"La T5afeen, tra Nawal dayman tt7amas bzyada" Dana told her (wallah this girl knows me inside out).


"HWW? Kl hl 9raaa5 w mafy shay?" Sara asks making Haya laugh.


"LA YKOON FE 6FL BAL BHAFA MRA THANIA 5AYIF???" Yup, you guessed, we were working next to the haunted house, though we're a small booth, but we're responsible for taking care of the children in the haunted house, that's because the haunted house crew isnt as "sufficient", thanks haunted house crew ;).


"La ya 7ibaybiiiii, hahahah.... Fee... PAINTBALLLL!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHH" I said practically excited, it would be my first time to play.


"NOOO WAYYYYY" Jumana stated, "LAZIM NL3AB, NAWAL ANA W INTI BNROO7 NL3AB, OKAY???".


"AKEEEED, AND SARA W HAYA, TJOON????" I asked still shouting hehe.


"Eeewa" they both said.


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I was texting Khalid, and he asked me about a girl, he asked if she was hot and how she looked, thats when I got mad, he was a freaking pervert, and guess what? I didn't realize that !!!!


"Allah yahdeek w ywafgik".


Thats the last message I sent him before I cut him off completely from my life.


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Laman 6'alamt el dnya shway glna bnroo7 paintball, and the line was super duper long, bs allah y3een wallah.


On our way, me and the girls, well, we saw, ummm, boyats, a lot, but there were these two, just sitting together in eachothers lap, and ughhh, disgusting !!!! I'm sorry, but I'm not the type of person who is used to seeing this thing, I respect it, but I still think its 7aram wallah, so from my POV I don't like it, but if you are one of them or whatever, well, I'll respect you. Thats what I do.


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Friday:


Guess what? I'm stuck at school, and its superrr boring, I go nothing to do, and I have to wait till afternoon then I can go back to the festival. I decided to text Nawaf.


"Good morning Nawaf"


"9ba7 el 5air" he replied a few minutes later.


"What are you doing?"


"I just woke up" ya 7leela towah ygoom, shaklah bda yiratib nomah (its late morning).


I told him about the festival if he knows some kid that wants to go, turns out the only kid he has in his family is 6 months old, he talked about the little guy in a way that seems like he's the father, though he's just the uncle.


"Nawaf, akeed mo wildik ha4a?" LOL


"eeee bs mra amoot feeh"


"Allah yi7fi4ah"


"Ameen"


"Tadri kef ttkalam 3nah yiwari inik tgdar tkoon ab zain w 3adil, mashallah"


"La wallah xD?"


"Eee, ya 74 ely bta54ha wallah, bt5af int 3alla 3yalkom bshkl mo 6abee3y" I told him, it was a risky text, but oh well.


"La 3ad, tra fe ely a7san mny" shaklah ista7a


"taby el 9ara7a? fe 3alamy klha ma shft insan rajal m7taram zayik, like really, you're a very amazing guy allah yi7fi4ik" I told him.


"wiyak, and my face is turning red, you're making me blush" DAMN WHAT WHAT AND WHATTA WHATTTT WHAT UMM ACT COOL NAWAL, THIS IS NORMAL, RIGHT? YEAH ACT COOLLLLL.


"Oh really? haha lol, I've got magic *smirk emoji*, and btw bl that inik wa7id 9gheer fl 3mr w ur morals are very good mashallah" he was 19, and I said this because of Khalid, I remembered him, Khalid was 20, but he was immature, but this guy over here is the opposite, hes, wow.


Then as we talked about this, it escalated to the following:


"Ee 6ayib, lakin 7ata low, when I first get married, I don't want children." He texted.


"Why?"


"Mas2ooliya"


"Ee 97 el mas2ooliyah 9a3ba, take it from me, I'm still young, but since I'm the oldest child, I understand". I told him. "But don't you like children? and tara when you get older, you might be ready, this is probably because you're still young".


"Mo bs k4a, 7ata when I first get married, I want to spend time with my wife, just the both of us, before a child comes along, because when a child comes along, then there wouldn't be any time for us to be together as much" OMG THIS GUY OVER HERE IS A KEEPER, INSHALLAH HE FALLS FOR ME AND WE LIVE A HAPPILY EVER AFTER TOGETHER.


"AWWWWWWWWW, Tbh thats sooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuute" I texted in aww


"You're cuter"


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END OF CHAPTER 4


CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS? I'M IN AWE, I CANNOT BELIEVE GUYS LIKE HIM ACTUALLY EXIST, AND YES, HE EXISTS, THIS IS A TRUE STORY.


I made it a long chapter for you guyssss ;) well its not really long, but compared to what I wrote before, it kinda is heheh






Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Chapter 3

1 new message.

"تراني نمت، اعذريني"

duuude you don't have to apologize lol.

"ايش دعوا لا تتأسف، ترا عادي"

Sent.

He replied after a few minutes, then he asked if I had another app for contacting, since he didn't like this app that much.

9ara7attan, 5ft fl bdaya, glt yumkin howa la3ab w yaby banat w k4a, but I thought I should give him a chance, since as they say, everyone deserves a chance.

"How about MSN?"

Sent.

1 new message.

"You still use that *laughing emoji*?"

I don't use it, but I didn't know which app to chose, wallah don't think I'm weird!

"No! haha, how about, hmmm, BBM?"

Sent.

"Good idea".

We shared our pins, and I added him, b9ara7a I thought I should be shway thgeela but not too much, just incase this guy, well you know that I mean, la3ab w hal 5arabee6.

As the days past, I kept thgeela with him until we got to the weekend, we texted each other, and decided to play truth or dare.

Adry ina ghareeb la2na howa mo janbi 3ashan yadri e4a sawait el dare ow la2, but we just went on with it.

"I dare you... wait are you home alone?" he texted.

"Nope"

"Ok, then I dare you to shout your name two times out loud" uhh... a weird dare, but I did it anyways.

"Done" I sent.

"Any reply?" He asked

"La2, ma7ad rad. lol"

"Ajal they know you're weird"

"Everyone is weird, thats what makes them unique" I said hoping it was a good come back.

"6ayib cats wla dogs?"

"Dogs obviously"

"Laaa mani m9adig"

"Lesh? Wsho??"

"Kl el banat they choose cats, your the first to choose dogs"

"I just love them I guess?"

"Tedri can 3ndi a dog?"

"Really?"

"Yup, funny story, I used to feed him chips and chocolate as a child, my parents would tell me its bad for him, so I'd do it behind their backs"

"lol bs lesh xD?"

"3ashan 7raaamm 7set inoh ma byakol akil 7loo"

"haha cute"

"I know"

"5ala9 la titfa5ir..."

Thats when I started opening up to him, we texted for about 4 hours I believe, but at first kan ygool inah yaby ynam, lakin glt iny zahgana w lazim yiratib nomah, he's always awake during the night and asleep during the day, and he has dawam, f it was kind of a win win.

Howa yiratib nomah w ana istanis.

---- After the weekend-----

Kan el jow klah mia6r, ya3ni amazinggggg, bs our school wasn't willing to give us a vacation. Elmuhim bl first period, the actual roof was leaking and the lights weren't working, the just keep on opening and closing, w yjeebona el madrisa :) Kanat free period so I was using my phone, 6ila3 7ta Raed had to go to uni (jam3a). Yup he's in his second year of college mashallah -3gbali-, we were texting and Ameera was telling me something.

"Ha esh rayik??" Ameera says louder.

"ha?"

"Ely touwny glt lk 3anah"

"Oh eee eee mraaaa 7loooooo"

"Nawal..... Wsh tsaween" tjee w t6l bl jawal, "Meen Alyaa?"

"Ohhh ha4i wa7da tgrabli..." I felt guilty, she usually told me everything, but I was lying to her.

"6ayib Alyaa tgdar t9bar, sm3eeni"

"Yla ha esh tabeen Ameera?"

"Aby aroo7 a5ith course bl summer b London, a5ith shay wanasa wla shay yfeedni?"

"You can take two"

"Oh 97777, bs bshoof ray ahli owal etha yir6'oon"

"Okay, esh rayik ana w enti nfs el course b Summer?" 7set ena bkoon wanasa

"OMG EEE YESSS WALLAH WANASA W 7MAS!" She practically jumped mn her kirsy

"Amoora hady! Shofy el 9f klah yi6ali3na, w lazim nshoof Haya e4a taby ma3ana"

"Inshallah tgdar, el mushkilla he kl sana troo7 Canada 3ashan her siblings"

"I know" I frowned, Haya has 4 siblings, she's the youngest and lives with her parents in Saudi, they will move to Canada with the rest of her siblings when she finishes high school 3ashan tdris hnak with her siblings in the same college w k4a.

"BANAT ! " Fe abla appeared out of no where, I hid my phone 3ala 6ool.

"Zayn a7san hdoo2, 5ala9 kalmo ahalkum, ejaza, 5loohom yjoon ya5thoonkum" She said that and left.

As soon as she left, all the girls went crazy 3ashan far7aneen.

Dget 3ala mama "Aloo, hala mama".

"Hala, feek inti ow e5tik shay?"

"La la, bs 5rooj mubakir, mafy dirasa"

"Yoooh 3ad ana el7een wi9alt el bahrain ma3a abookum"

"5ala9 ya3ni ha4i 3alama mn rabi ini aroo7 m3 Ameera el bait, w mara wa7da nbda2 our art class project, esh rayik?"

"hmph..... 6ayib okay, bs 5leeha tit2akad e4a umha ra6'ya, etha la2, 5leeha twa9likum inti w e5tik el bayt"

"inshallah"

"w dgy 3lay lama trkabeen el sayara"

"inshallah, shay thany?"

"La salamtik"

"Okay mama shukran a7ibik bye!"

"m3 el salama ya el engleziyah" I laughed and shut the phone as I hear her and my dad's laugh on the other side of the line.

"Amoora, ana bjee betkum low umik tr6'a"

"YESSS, elyoum 9ayir mraaaa 7loo!"

Jatna Haya, w galat inha btjee ma3ana, um Ameera galat 3adi, a9lan he mo bl bet so its okay.

When we got into the car I called mama and she told me to call her again when I arrive.

I then texted Raed:

هلا آسفة بس الصديقة الفضيلة عصبت علي تقول طفي جوالك

لا عادي اشدعوا

وعلى فكرة

yeah?

3a6ona in9iraf mubakir ;) nananana

Don't rub it in my face woman -.-

Anyways, you know what I want to do in this rainy beautiful weather?

La, what?

I want to jump outside and dance and run

But be careful not to fall

inshallah

Ok ajal owal ma too9lee e5riji bra e sawi el tebeenah

Haha I wish, bs none of my friends nor sister want to come into the rain with me and get wet

Honey, who said you had to have anyone, you have me, imagine I'm playing with you in the rain

Haha will do, yla we arrived, Adios

Bye and enjoy

Will do.

CUUUUUUTE ! I shouted inside but tried to act cool 3ashan el banat ma y7soon fe shay.

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Sunday, April 9, 2017

Chapter 2


1 new message

"6ayib, how can someone enter your life?"

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Message from "oRaedo'', I think this person is new, I checked their profile, yup, only few points, the person is new.

To be honest, when new people that come and private message me and that I don't recognize their handle, ya3ni they're usually like those wa95een people, allah la yableena, ya3ni yinarfizoon.

But me being Nawal, I 3adatan give everyone a chance at first, so I replied to the guy.

"By gaining trust".

Sent.

Ana glt iny akoon barda ma3ah 3ashan low kan niyatih say2ah yiroo7.

"Nawal !!!! T3AALIIIIII" Mama nadatny.

"INSHALLAH ANA JAYA".

"Ha Nawal, kl shay a7san?"
I nodded at her smiling shway, "6ayib, ana kalamt om Ameera, aham shay bukra bl mdrisa you act normal as nothing happened, everything b9eer a7san inshallah".

"inshallah"
I smiled then hugged her, "shukran a7ibik mama".

"w ana ba3ad".

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1 new message

"
لا هاذي صعبة * ايموجي ضحك* بالله كيف اقدر اكسب ثقتك من غير ما ادخل حياتك؟"

Shakla this Raed guy won't stop, lol.

Ummm... kayf arid...

"لا يعني اكيد بياخذ وقت كسب الثقة، لكن اعني ان الانسان يدخل القلب، وما يطلع"

But guys I meant it in a friendly way, don't let your mind go to the lovey-dovey way !

Sent.

1 new message

"ايوااا، طيب، انتي بخير؟"

Oh, this guy is something.

"مو مرا والله".

Sent.

1 new message

"ايش حصل؟".

At first, I hesitated to text him about what's going on, ya3ni I felt it's private, lakin who am I kidding, I need to 6ali3 ely fe galbi w 7arati and vent somewhere to feel better about what's going on, I might as well vent to this guy.

I decided to tell him what happened, and he was supportive to my point of view, that's sweet.

"على فكرة لو فجأة اختفيت، اعرفي اني غفوت" Raed sent, he said his sleep is messed up.

"لازم ترتبه"

"ايوة ايوة عارف".

And we continued talking about life until he stopped replying. He probably slept, though it's still early to sleep, it's just 6 pm, but howa gal inih ma nam ams el layl, maybe that's why.

When I went to bed, my mind dozed off to Khalid, ma 7ta 6g ham 3ashan ys2al lesh w esh 9ayir w k4a, mn gabil he used to text first w knt thgeela ma3ah, bs b3dayn I got a bit attached w gdayt el myana shway w 9rt I text first, w lma I didn't want to add him on snapchat, I started being the one who texts first 99% of the time. I wish I wasn't too gentle with people, I trust way too easily, and I guess it gets me attached and I hate that, it can get me into trouble, bs that's who I am, and it will take a lot to change that akeed </3.

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Next day I did as mama galat ly, 97 and she was back to normal.

"Ameera Haya!!! Esm3oooooni zayn!" knt mra mt7amsa when I was telling them.

"Hady hady shway shway esh feek?" Galat Ameera w he t6'7ak 3lay, and Haya only chuckled, she's soooo quite its super cute <3

"Okay fe ta6awo3 b event greeb, w klah bnat f ya3ni a4in ahilkum bywafgoon, esh raykum? ana bsajil, tbooni asjilkum ba3ad?"

"3ala 7asb mta 3ashan lo 3ndy e5tibar ow k4a" Haya galat, he dayman ely t5af 3la darajatha bzyada w kl 7yat-ha drasa drasa, mashallah allah y7f6'ha.

"Trkee Haya 3anik w sajleena, bnroo7 klna w nkoon m3 ba36' inshallah" Ameera said rolling her eyes.

"heheheh 6ayib, bs lazim nroo7 n7jz el booth ely naby nsajil feeh w nshtiri thyab el ta6awo3 el esboo3 el jay, la2na howa bkoon el esboo3 el jay" I told them both.

"Ay youm?" Haya asked.

"El thulatha2 w el arbi3a2 a6'n" Glt.

"5nroo7 el thulatha2 3ashan I have a test on thursday, so I can't go elarbi3a2, w 3ashan na5i4 booth 7loo, esh raykum?"

"Mwafgeen" Ana w Ameera glna m3 ba3a6' (This sometimes happens, wallah its like we're twins, though we no way are).

I think I'll send the registration link to Khalid, he has a younger sister, who I know is willing to sign up.

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Jat 79at el riya6'a today again, w el teacher was going to pair me up with another student, because she noticed what happened yesterday, I told her msh lazim, she told to come to her.

"Hala abla, fee shay?" I asked weirded out, this is a first.

And there's a first for everything Nawal, don't be surprised -.-

"Sho benik w bein 9a7bitik? Hee m3'9bitik 3a shee? ma ka2na ams 7a9al?" She asked with a mix of both accents.

"La la mafy shay 9ar, el7amdelallah kl shay 5air, bs shakilha kan feeha shay ams" I told her while chuckling, ya3ni why would she think I'm being forced to do something? lol.

"Ahh mashy, yla ro7y winbas6y" She told me while nodding at the girls.

"Inshallah" I smiled and went back to the girls.

I love her, she is cute, it's a shame it's her last year in this school </3.

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By the end of class I texted Khalid about the volunteering thing, and he said he'll gladly tell his sister to sign up as an immediate reply.

And there was also another message from Raed, hmmmm....



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Friday, April 7, 2017

Chapter 1



Chapter 1:

My name is Nawal, I'm 16, turning 17 soon inshallah. I have two best friends, Ameera, she's the closest, and Haya (not as close as Ameera), I'm the oldest of my best friends. I live a happy stable normal life, I have one younger sister. I'm not so close to my cousins, ya3ni as in my family, there are family issues w k4a, excluding my parents and sister akeed.

Looks:
Nawal==> Long dark brown hair + dark brown eyes, not slim nor fat, known for long eyelashes (The tallest).
Haya ==> Long light brown hair + brown eyes, very thin mashallah (second tallest).
Ameera==> Medium dark brown hair with a red glow mashallah, not slim nor fat. (Short).

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El7een ento t3arfoon path, 97? Kla el nas yishbikoon feeh, ik w3. I'm not really that type of person la2na hehe.

There's another app, it lets you post within a specific radius to your location, I'm obsessed with it ! Mra 7looooooooo. Elmuhim glt I'll post something la2ni I was bored. I wondered if we had any events today that I could go to or something.

"وايش عندكم بعصرية اليوم؟"

I posted it, and within a few minutes some person decides to dm me instead of replay, hmmm 6ayib wsho yaby ow taby?

"اهلا"

K2nsana mu7tara glt arid b3deen it2akad e4a bnt wla walad.

"هلا، بس ممكن اعرف الي معاي ولد ولا بنت؟"

typing....

"ولد، محطوط بالبايو حقي اصلَا"

Stupid Nawal! Stupid  *internal face palm*

"اوه انا اسفة بس ما اكلم عيال

"ايشدعوا"

"آسفة بس يا تحترم رايي او اسوي بلوك"

"خلاص اعتذر عن الازعاج"

I didn't reply, instead I checked his bio, his name was Khalid, okay...

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The next day, my parents and younger sister went out, ntmasha bl sayara, njeeb 3asha, nroo7 el market bla bla bla.

Our parents left us in the car (we were to lazy to get down lol) w umi ra7at farm 5, while baba ra7 yjeeb mu3ajanat mn el ma7al ely next to it.

I checked the same app and posted:

"طفشاااانة، وكيف حالكم انتوا؟"

Again, within a few minutes that same guy, Khalid, sent a message,

"بما انك طفشانة رح ارسل لك بعض النكت"

يوووووهههه ! انت ما رح تسمع الكلام شكلك؟

هذا جزاي لما قلت رح اشيل عنك الطفش الي انتي عايشة فيه؟!؟؟

لا لا خلاص ورني يلا بس ايش عندك

I was mad w ba3ad bored, so I guess it won't hurt, 97?

He sent pictures of arabic memes, uh.... The only thing he earned was a chuckle and I told him that.

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Within a few days, we grew somewhat closer to each other, I found out his age, 21, and I told him I was 16.

عادي، لان العمر ما هو الا رقم

ooooo I think he's hinting something here, but no, w33 Nawal la tgarbeen mnah akthar!!!

ايش عندك بكرة المغرب؟

ليه؟

لانك قلتيلي قبل فترة انك بتكونين مشغولة ذاك اليوم

اي صديقاتي جايين

اجل وناسة بكون، بتقعدون ترقصون وتصورون سناب

مين قال نرقص ونصور ههه؟ انا مو من النوع الي تحط صورها على هالبرامج اصلَا ههههه

Okay so for awhile I felt that he was hinting that he wanted to add me on snap, and see my pictures, ya3ni basically how I looked, idk, I didn't trust him, 5ft for some reason and everytime Khalid brought it up, I try to ragi3 or change the mawdhoo3.

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Second semester finally started, w 93oobat el derasa zadat ll2asaf elshadeed </3.

The second week since school started after the break, 7set fee shay 3'ala6 b Ameera bs ma 3araft esh... We all have best friends, 97? Ameera 9deegty and now we've reached 9 years of friendship, ya3ni we're really close, but that one day, faj2a after the weekend, kna distant, madri leh, but I didn't like it.


"Ylla pick a partner to play tennis with" galat el teacher.  I looked at Ameera, but she seemed distant, like she was trying to avoid me.

"Ameera, ylla nl3ab?" I asked trying to avoid eye contact, la2na 5ft mn wa4i3ha this week.

Ameera nodded and came.

"Esh feek ma tl3abeen 97?" I was surprised, she usually is the one to play good.

"Bs, kafy" radat 3alay coldly.

"Shino kayfik? Esh feek? Ma tabeen tl3abeen ma3ay?" I asked, wallah bdait itnarfaz.

"Eee, kayfee, maby el3ab ma3ak!" Radat full of her self.

THE HELL?

"Ameera.. Esh feek? Lesh k4a hal ayam? Esh feek matabeeni????" I asked her, I seriously was holding a cry inside of me, I want to hit her! Adry y6'a7ik wa6'3i, bs 3a9abt 3layha, esh swet 3ashan tglb 3lay faj2a?

"Ee bs k4a, Ma abeek" those words were like a cold knife into my heart, I left her, trying to find a new partner, I don't like this, she isn't Ameera. This isn't her.

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Youm rija3t el bait, mama 7asat feeny shay, I told her everything, I told her that she's been acting cold and weird.

"5ala9 mama, la t5afeen, bakalim om Ameera w bshoof esh 9ayer" wallah a7ib mama, she was trying to solve the issue and calm me down.

"Okay, ana baroo7 el7een, 3ndy homeworks to do" I kissed her head then went to my office room.

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Ma gidart arakiz while doing my homework, 7sayt me feelings were trapped in, I felt like I wanted to scream that out.

Lakin e4a I screamed them out, eljiran b5afooooon.

Fakart iny ifta7 my favorite app:

"ليه بالدنيا ناس يدخلون الحياة، يعيشون معاك، لكن فجأة يقلبون عليك؟ يعني بعد عشرة سنين فجأة يقررون يغيرون رايهم عليك؟؟ والله ما يصير، اتمنى ناس يدخلون حياتي لكن من قلب ويجلسون ويريحون، ابي ترو فريندز، نوت فيك فريندز".

Post.

God, that literally felt better, I feel like I can finish my work now in peace.

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Ba3ad a few hours, ja al maghrib, I finished all my assignments, then I decided to go on my phone.

I always left that app for last, because it's the app I stay on the most, fa after checking all social media, I opened it.

1 new message

"6ayib, how can someone enter your life?"

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End of the first chapter, this is really a true story, everything is real, and it all happened to a friend of mine, I thought that I would share it, I asked her first 3ashan ma tz3al and she was okay with it.

Elmuhim inshallah 3ijabkom awal chapter <3. (ba3d el ta3deel).